pursuing your passions

The most amazing thing happened to me this weekend. No I didn't win the lottery, at least not financially, but in a way I feel like I have. After constantly changing my mind about which path I would like to take my life through, I think I finally came to the best solution for myself, at least for now. Over the past few years I have been struggling to keep myself interested in my studies. I think I've known for a while that I've been forcing myself down what is by no means the wrong path, but a path I have been wandering down for other people instead of myself. Three years ago, I came to U of T to study Film and Music, thinking I would ultimately work in production or writing for one of those two industries. After second year I knew that I loved to write, but that writing essay after essay was making me grow to hate one of my favorite hobbies. I considered taking a creative writing program back home in Vancouver, but decided it would be best to switch to an English major at U of T, as they are recognized for their strong English department. However, the way I felt towards the English courses was not that different than how I was feeling towards the courses I had been taking in first and second year. A few weeks ago I came to the conclusion that I needed to really think about what I love to do and how to incorporate it into my life, but that's easier said than done. I considered taking a holistic nutrition course, as I'm constantly keen on learning about health and improving my own. Taking a course involving cosmetics and make-up also crossed my mind, as I've always loved make-up, hair and fashion. Throughout my brainstorming, it finally hit me that since I have so many interests, passions and hobbies that I need to take myself down a path where I can combine maybe not all of my interests and skills, but at least a few of them. I was becoming anxious that perhaps there wasn't going to be an ideal job for me, when I went to have dinner with my cousin. After telling her that I was growing tiresome of my classes at U of T and that I was considering holistic nutrition she eventually said to me "Ciara, you are a writer." As soon as those words came out of her mouth I realized that she was right. I've always loved writing, be it stories, songs, blogging, and even essays if I'm passionate enough about the topic. Then I got to thinking about the endless possibilities that come along with writing. Writing has no boundaries and in my mind is a limitless activity. I am the type of person who easily gets bored and am constantly changing my mind about everything, but when it comes to writing that's not necessarily a bad thing. What will I do now, you may be wondering? My plan is to take some journalism classes while also keeping up a blog where I can filter all my opinions on music, movies, makeup, love, life and anything else that crosses my mind on a regular basis. Sure, maybe nobody will read it, but that's ok. Then there's also a chance that my thoughts could make it out to thousands of people around the world, even people I don't necessarily want knowing everything about my life, but that's ok with me too. Obviously it would take a lot to make a living as a writer, but for the time being I'd be perfectly content working a regular job on the side if it means I can write, and save money to ultimately travel around the world and document my adventures. I've always believed in pursuing your passions and I've finally decided to take my own advice. Some people may think I'm crazy, those people may be right. Am I giving up pursuing a degree forever? Not necessarily. However, at the moment I know it's not the way I need to be spending my time. I'm not certain of where the next few years will take me, but I can't wait to find out. All I can say for now is: Bring it on Life, I'm ready for you.

 

 

With love,

 

Ciara ♥